27 years have passed obviously. i do not think about it as i prefer to put my concentration on the residue of my life (if god bless). so I resort to my self and also with the guidance of the books to reach my goals. if I try hard to act according to my planned map , there will be no blame and scold or regret. and I will reach a point that may be deserve to be acclaimed of my books and the works I have done for other people. it was not long time ago that I read from Mr Shabanali that at the time of death we have to divide our properties . those values  which I have made for myself will be possessed by the angle of death , but those I have done for other people will remain for me and worth of respect.